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Aku bukan manusia yang gelojoh akan sesuatu, bernama cinta.
20111204 | Sunday, December 04, 2011
![]() I know, that feeling of being in love and loved in return is wonderful. Or even, bliss. And sometimes, it may get rough and complicated. But the end of the day, who doesn't want to be in love. Everybody does. It's not that I don't want to be in love. I want to, I love the feeling of love inside me. It's just that, it's not the right time. That feeling of being taken care of, being worried for, being happy without a reason, surprises, love notes, love texts, love video calls, love dates, everything. It's beautiful. But can you imagine what will it be, if I chose the wrong path again ? I know, it will be a lesson. Again, and again. But for once, I want to make it right. I wanna wait till it's the right time. I don't want to rush into things. I don't wanna end up being hurt again. Or shall I say, I just can't afford another heartbreak. Listen to this, and understand why. Let me live my life. Don't expect me to commit, to expect me to give my all when I'm not even ready. Or even better, don't love me if you have no intentions of keeping me. Let me live. Let me breathe. Let me heal. Yes, let me heal perfectly. Let me heal all the wounds. Let me heal all the heartbreaks. Just let me be me, and let me decide whenever I'm ready. Because I can't accept someone when there's still a lot in my mind, I'll hurt the ones I love, and in the end it will all hurt me again. So this time, let me heal perfectly. When the right time comes, I will be completely in love. With a man, that deserves me best. I don't need a man who will treat me like a rebound, and an option. Let me be happy on my own. Let me laugh and carve a smile on my face without faking it. I deserve to be happy, on my own. I shall learn to love myself more and give myself some space, then I'll be ready to be in love again. One day, but not now.
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