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 I am a free spirit writer. I write what I feel, in happy moments, in sad moments, and yet depressing ones. My blog represents how I think about things, I dont write to impress. I write to express. I am trying to express myself what half my world is exploding with emotional thoughts. |
Dwell upon your own thoughts and fight your inner battles
20120117 | Tuesday, January 17, 2012
 Sometimes it's better to have time for yourself. You really get to know who you are when you dwell upon your own thoughts and fight your inner battles. Life is a journey, of ups and downs. And it's nothing without risks. In life, I've faced obstacles that I can't even imagine myself going through it. But I said to myself, there's no point on giving up when the only option I have is to be strong and keep moving forward. The more I tried to avoid all the madness, the more it kills me seeing everything fall apart right in front of my eyes one by one. Sometimes, I have these weird thoughts as if I don't even really know who I really am deep down inside. It's like there's something messy and complicated in me that I can't even figure it out. Tapi sebenarnya, makin banyak cabaran yang engkau tempuhi, makin kau akan kenal diri engkau siapa. Ya, aku tak sempurna. Aku memang bukan manusia yang sempurna. Aku buat kesilapan dan kadang kadang aku tak reti belajar pun dari kesilapan aku. Mungkin, itu kelemahan aku. Tapi, tidak bermaksud setiap kali aku jatuh, aku akan terus jatuh. Manusia berubah. Dan andaikata satu hari aku berubah, aku doa yang aku berubah ke arah sesuatu yang lebih baik, yang tidak menjahanamkan aku. Itu harapan aku, yang aku sendiri masih tercari cari macam mana nak ke situ. Aku tahu, dah lama aku menyepi. I took my own sweet time, dealing with all the mess inside my head. Walaupun hanya suku yang aku dapat selesaikan, ada lagi yang tergendala. Aku masih lagi mencuba. Siapa kata aku putus asa ? Aku ambil masa. Sebab, aku tak mahu buat keputusan terburu buru. Sometimes it ends in a disaster. And I can't afford another heart-throbbing sadness inside of me at this very particular moment. Sebab tu aku ambil masa aku sendiri. Biar aku fikir yang sebaik mungkin mana hala tuju aku. Dan cari jalan penyelesaian yang terbaik. I'm fighting my inner battles on my own. Sometimes it seems that I'm happy on the outside, but the truth is people never really know. The only one that knows how much pain and suffer youve been through in life is you. And for that, you can judge yourself. And you shall improve yourself to be someone better. Foot note : I'm back. Labels: a lovers rhapsody. |
